Anonymous asked: im sure you answer this somewhere on your blog but i cant find it....why dont you want to believe in a god? doesnt life seem so pointless without the world having been created for a reason you having been created for a reason?
To be clear, I used to want to believe in god. Back when I was first questioning, I desperately wanted to regain my strong faith. (See my essay, “Confessions of a Would-Be Apathetic Backslider”.)
Similarly, when I first started becoming skeptical, irreligious, agnostic, and eventually atheistic, I did feel pretty lost at first and things did seem pointless, but I got past that. I realized a big part of it was just because I’d been taught that life was about religion. It took me awhile to absorb a more existential approach, that life is about whatever you want to be. And honestly, I’m much happier these days because of it.
These days I would somewhat prefer that god not exist. Honestly, there’s not much about god that would make his existence preferable. While it might lend some potential meaning to existence, it could easily negate my reasons for existence. And while the idea of an afterlife can sound nice, it can also sound terrible. Simply put, god sounds like a tyrannical dictator. While there can be some nice things about such a leader, I’d much rather not have one.
But to be clear, my non-belief isn’t about preferences. It wasn’t when I wanted to believe, nor is it now that I wouldn’t want to believe. It’s always been, primarily, about the reasoning. What is the evidence? What is logical? And for that, preferences make no difference. (Just as I might prefer that aliens and unicorns exist, but that doesn’t make it so.)